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HELLO.

Three more weeks until survey. God damn, time flies so fast. I feel like last year went by so slowly.. but maybe because it was foundation year and everything about foundation just dragged.

THINGS TO DO THINGS TO DO THINGS TO DO
NEVERENDING THINGS TO DO

Quantum of Solace comes out this weekend. I still haven't seen the first movie though.. Was it good?

I've got a lovely bunch of coconuts. Diddly doot.

I need to finish my art history paper.. soon.

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- Gilbert Chesterton

Halloween sucks.

Wasted day. Wasted life.

Dessert, please.

- Steven Meretzky

Things to do:

Due next week
1. VisComm - 5 typography panels, due next week. printed and mounted. 2 already completed.
2. Comm Imaging - magazine cover + spread, 2-3 variations of each, due next week. almost done.
3. Art History - finish making art history flash cards.

Due in 2 weeks:
1. Des Proc - postcards due in 2 weeks. 1 already completed.
2. Illustration - performance anxiety, due in 2 weeks.

Completed
1. Typography - final name in illustrator. print out.

GOD DAMN THIS.

Things to do this weekend:
1. scan VisComm sketch, vector, print in labs on Monday, (Due Tuesday)
2. scan DesProc sketches, begin to vector, (sketches due Wednesday)
3. make art history flash cards
4. read chapter 17 of World Civ book
5. Comm Imaging photos uploaded, edited, make 2 proof sheets, print in labs on Monday, (Due Wednesday)

Illustration painting: done.
Typography edited final sketch: done.


.. Looking forward to the weekend. -_-;;

I feel like such a fucking mess.

I am such a fucking mess.

I've been trying to read this chapter of my World Civilizations book for the past 2 hours. Not working out so well. Woke up happy but then my day automatically got crappier because there was no hot water so I took a 2 minute cold shower on a cold day. :( Most relaxing part of my day was ruined. I might waste some more water and take another shower later.. depends on 'green' I'm feeling. ;P I look and feel like a mess today.

Rainy days make me especially lazy and unmotivated...


Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer..


p.s. PAM GOES TO PRATT!

I love Wednesday nights. No homework to worry about for Thursday 'cause I have Intro to Science. ;D ;D Then I get to go home to my babyyyyyyyyy, even though he has a bunch of midterms to study for.

Portrait photo project to do this weekend, as well as some more thumbnails to draw. I also need to go to the library to check out some expressionism paintings.. eek. Painting sucks. Then I have a bajillion chapters of my World Civ books to read and maybe I'll start studying for my art history midterm. .. or maybe not. :D

Sometimes Pratt makes me feel like I should be a smoker.

THE END!

Is this true? Yes? Am I coming back to LiveJournal-ing? Possibly. Partially because I feel like time is going by so fast and I can never remember what happened or with who or when it happened. Getting old.

School is terrifying and the work is substantial. Really, it's the only word to describe it. It's not the type of work you sit down and open and book and finish in an hour, it's the type of work where you spend 80% of your time thinking and then 20% actually doing. Both are equally annoying and exhausting. For some reason, 3 1/2 hour critiques are also surprisingly exhausting. Sitting there for 3 hours trying to concentrate and figure out why your piece kicks ass/sucks so much really takes a toll on your psyche.

Free Transit Week was last week, so Ron decided to plan a little gathering which turned out to be quite satisfying. I showed Ron and Jessie around Pratt, bitched about stupid clusters of rich Korean girls and how tiny the campus really is, and then we went to visit Vicky at Columbia. Walking around Columbia makes me feel stupid.. That stupid KSA club event was that night, but that's super lame. ;P

Then on Saturday, Khuon and I decided to go to the city just to hang around. Was planning on going to Pinkberry, but found a Red Mango instead and it turned out to be equally as satisfying. Was also planning on going to Serendipity for some nomnomnom frozen hot chocolate, but it turned out to be too expensive so we spent most of our time walking around and hanging out on a big rock in Central Park. It was a swell time, despite the chilly weather.

And now, here I am, typing away, while thinking up and drawing millions of thumbnails for the million assignments I have to come up with awesome/clever concepts for. It's neverending, I swear.

I'm excited for Britney Spears' new single. ... Not embarrassed to admit it.

Maybe I'll upload some pictures, but they're all up on Facebook so it almost seems pointless. Plus, I don't have time. ;___;

I've been feeling a lot sadder than usual lately.


So weird.

stupid little quiz.

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

i always seem to be really unhappy at least twice a week.
every sunday i dread going back to school and doing shit i hate doing. i hate art, i hate making art. i dont know what i got myself into. i'd transfer but i'm incapable of doing anything that requires smarts. everything i do at school is such an obligation.. rarely do i find myself going "this. is. awesome." very rarely. so much stress... it'll get better, i guess. i need to stop questioning myself.

i hope i'm not a waste of $50,000/year.

I should figure out why I hate myself so much.

BUY A T-SHIRT FROM ME.

I promise you they're really cute. ;D

More monsters to come!

I'm still alive.

Meepmeep. :]